I added the above quote to my last blog. I was left with that that in my mind from that day on. I cannot seek to make changes if I carry the same mentality. I need to change my attitude and change my thoughts if I want to create change.
The following days I had a revelation....
A couple of weeks ago, I realized that I am weeks away from turning 30 (on August 18th). I am a grown woman and I am not getting younger. I want to be the healthiest I can be, TODAY! This means that my life is taking a turn: I will now enter my 30's! It is not a sharp or drastic turn My actions, behaviors and habits in the past have lead me to the point where I am today in every single aspect. What it turning 30 means, however, is significant turn in my life because I can no longer remain in the same state. I want to improve and by that it means that I must approach life a different way, a better way and smarter way. In order to improve my mind, body, heart and spirit, I need to change my thoughts and challenge what I am used to.....
Another reason why this turn in my life is meaningful is because pretty soon it will no longer be about me, but about my future children. I want to be the healthiest I can be so that when I am ready and chose to get pregnant my body will be the healthiest environment for my baby to grow. I want my every organ in my body to be healthy. I want clean blood running through my body and I want every organ function to work well. I want to have a healthy heart, brain, a HEALTHY BODY!
On July 1st, I made the commitment to myself to go vegetarian because of multiple reasons (health, the environment and animal rights) . After re-reading the book Skinny Bitch, I decided that vegetarian is the best and sensible thing for me to do because eating a plant-based diet makes a difference in the way you live. I've researched somewhat on the health benefits and living a less impactful lifestyle by being a vegeterian and I gotta say that I chose to live this way. I am actually an ovo-vegetarian because I still eat eggs (organic, free-range, that is). I don't drink cow's milk, eat very little cheese/cottage cheese and yogurt (almost none) . I want to cut the "almost none" out completely though. This will be a step forward to veganism (maybe), but we will see if that is even a long term option for me....The most important thing to me right now is to be the healthiest I can be and be the least impactful I can be on this earth.
The less toxins, chemicals, junk I have in my body when my baby comes, the healthier the baby I will give birth to. I intent to raise a vegan baby. I know it is do-able because my sister Laura is raising her 8 month old baby girl, Adrianna that way. Adrianna is such a happy and healthy baby! It is amazing to see her grow eating all natural/organic and animal-free products!
Bret was very influential in this decision. Bret has been a vegetarianism for the past 1.5 years (before that, he was vegetarian for 3 years in college) and ever since 2010 we do not buy meat, chicken or fish. I use to call myself a "flexi-terian" because I would eat animals when I was away from home...but now I cannot conceive the thought of eating it again after all I know of the cruelty animals suffer and all the chemicals that go into their bodies, poor things... I also dislike the meat industry very much. Ugh, I also dislike and the bad ethics of the USDA and FDA, including the fast food industry. A great movie to watch is Food, Inc. (http://www.foodincmovie.com/); it is easy to understand how the whole animal (meat) and food systems work.
Anyway, going back to NOW! I am going to compete for the 2nd time on September 24! I am 11 weeks out - 76 days out! I wanted to start contest-prep 12 weeks out or 90 days out, but I wasn't ready. The weeks after the show I was over eating, eating tons of sweets and not working out as much. I weight myself a couple of weeks ago and I was exacly 118lbs. In contets day I was 111.5lbs. All the weight I've gained is water weight, sodium, sugar and fat, yuck!
This past week I got sick and it really threw me out of control. I was eating okay, not so much indulging on sweets and larger portions, but I did not train as hard. I took the week off to recuperate and give my muscles and joint a break before training hard for contest-prep. Dieting and training hard to get bikini ready once again has arrived!!!
I can't take it anymore. I am ready to go back and get in the best shape of my life ever! This time around it will be much better because I have learned so much from last contest-prep. I am so excited for these next 11 weeks. I am determined to limit my sweets and cheat meals. I already have my diet and training planned out. My diet will be much more stricter and cleaner and my training is going to me much more rigorous and focused. My sleeping habits will be better. I am aiming at 8 hours of sleep a night!
So here I go on to the gym to get back into shape! I look forward to a great day today!
I have to go back to my training and dieting to get disciplined and get to the health and fitness level I want to be at.