Today I am starting over. The last couple of weeks were tough for me because I didn't eat as clean. After feeling crappy in many ways, I decided to do something about it and change my life.
Last night, I realized, "I am not a bikini pro. I am not trying to become a pro. My diet is not like a pro and it shouldn't be." All this time I've been kicking myself in the butt and feeling guilty because my diet is not 100% clean, but it is not realistic. Yeah, I want to be as healthy as I can be, but being healthy also means being healthy mentally. Feeling guilty and having mind battles and games with myself are making me stress, feel guilty and I feel horrible. I don't want that, so I decided to change my thinking.
Yes, I want to be in the best shape of my life, but that does not mean that looking or aspiring to look like a bikini pro is the standard. I want to be comfortable with the way I look. I want my glutes to look tight and round in jeans; I want my shoulders and arms to look tone in a tank-top; I want my figure to look great in a little black dress! But having a very low body fat percentage or even having a six-pack is not my absolute goal.
Having optimal health is vital. Fitness and nutrition are extremely important to me.Working with and for my Latino community is my mission, and by using the strengths,skills, knowledge and attitude I have will help me create changes int he lifestyles of Latinos. I want to be a role model, not look or be someone who is unreachable. I want a body that my sisters to attain, not a body where they have to sacrifice many things that are important to maintain culture, the culture that makes Latinos healthier, live longer and makes family ties stronger.
I am going to love this journey of competing in amateur bikini contests -- but it will not define me and it will not control my life. I love myself and I am happy the way I am.I will always aim high to reach my goals and dreams, and I will stay true to myself. I want to have a healthy, clear and calm mind and remembering my mission in life will keep me on track to keep going!
Last night, I did, however, re visit my diet and now have a plan I can follow to prepare me for my contest (7 weeks / 47 days out!).
|3% other calories = 35 calories to spare|