I've been having pretty low energy and low motivation as I go about my days. Although my work is progressing, it is going at a slower pace. If it were not for all these deadlines I would take another vacation. I would like to say, a vacation just to myself, but I think of Bret and how I'd love to be with him. He is my soul mate, my partner in life. I love him, I want to be with him.
I have not been motivated to workout. Since a week ago, I've only stepped into the gym 2 times (on Monday and today, Thursday)! On Monday I was so pissed at my seizure that I told myself, I'm working shoulders and not letting myself down. On Tuesday and Wednesday I could not get myself to think about the gym and I didn't go, I just did not want to...I had no motivation or stamina.
Today, Bret picked me up at home and we went together. I literally was dragging my feet. I warmed up 5 minutes on the treadmill and I was thinking, "I can do this!" Then as I walked upstairs it was hard to get my leg work out in. My body is just not used to the weights. It's crazy how one week of not working out your body can lose strength. I did some squats, plie squats, lunges, deadlifts and leg curls, but no cardio.
I feel better in terms of mood, I feel I am handling it better, but still kinda low. I need to pick myself up and go. I know I will be able to. I am using this situation as motivation to get me to do things in life, to go after and achieve my big goals and be the best person I can be. I will do it.
Health, Joy, Peace and Love,
Bea
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