I must admit, however, that at times I've noticed that when I am alone I start remembering things that others have done and said to me -- and naturally, as any other human being -- it bring me a down a little bit...The other morning at 5am while Bret was till sleeping and it was quiet and dark outside (I was sitting on the carpet tying my tennis shoes to hit the gym) I started thinking of the negative things a couple of people have done/said to me and I began to sense that they were jealous of my accomplishments....At the moment when these situations happened with those people, I realized that those actions/words reflect who they are and are not really about me. But when I'm alone and I start thinking too much, I notice how my head bows down and my shoulders fall, and imagine the look on my face....It sucks. I would never admit to this, but it's true. It happens to ALL of us no matter what. I don't want to live this way and I really want to be in control of my feelings when I am alone.
What others say or do to you are a refection their own judgement - and they take it our on others. This is true even about ourselves. When we say or do things to others, it is a refection of who we are and our own judgment ans insecurities. Because I have this philosophy, I try to be careful about what I say to others and it helps me analyze myself in situations by asking: "Now, does this say more about me than the other person?"
Love,
Bea
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